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2008-02-03T15:27:00.000-08:00

everyone has their opinions about what happened. this is what i have to say. you may agree or disagree with my reasoning but this is how i feel so suck it up.

i was extremely upset yesterday when i told bog i expelled beth. i told him why i did what i did but he refused to listen to reason. instead he went on his mindless, demeaning insults on chat. i could not get a word in to clarify things with him and beth. beth was only asking me for 1 thing but she never got the a chance to hear what i had to say as i excused myself politely and exited chat.

bog, at one point of the chat, mentioned that "this is a fucking game". if it were so, why is he taking things so personally? i can't understand why it's difficult for some to separate real life from the game. wasn't he happy that beth got the book and that it worked? why he couldn't leave it be? would i be wrong to presume that he's worried beth wouldn't be getting any more books from Kami? it was her ticket to get free or cheap skill and story books. but bog managed to screw those chances.

i wanted to speak with beth alone but i know she can't be trusted after she told bog that i was screaming at her in guild when i wasn't. when have i ever lost temper in guild chat? when have i ever put a member down and embarrass him in front of others? she was clearly manipulating bog to get what she wants. sly, manipulative and cunning, really smart. she knew which bog buttons to press or which bog strings to pull. honestly, playing the "im-weak-i-need-help-sympathyze-with-me-" card is tiring. it's people like bog and beth that sucks the fun out of the game.

there were so many ways to have asked kp for the book without going into an angry tirade. he isn't a hard man to talk with. you can always reason out with him. there everyone was going to get their books, one way or the other, it was just a matter of time. but as i've seen, 4th job bring out the worst in everyone. now, i'm not sure i want to be a part of it. it's not worth my friendship or my sanity.

beth's expulsion was my own decision and no one else's. i have been unfair to her and i'm sorry but i don't want her back in Kami. i know i'm not alone in sharing this feeling but i will not drag them in this drama i try so hard to avoid. as i've told kp, i don't want her to get cheap or free books when she does nothing for anyone but herself. why should i help someone who puts herself first at all times? i've heard beth say "i can't afford to crow because i'm saving my mesos for 4th job skill books" said in guild chat when we were clearing crow on her channel so she can train. why should i help someone who can't help herself? so what if she's sick? i'm sick too, sicker than anyone in maple but i never made my illness an excuse to manipulate or trick others to get me what i want or need. call me selfish because, at this moment, i am. call me unfair, because i am.

the guild spoke: "she gives us too much negativity and pessimism", "she is always drowning in self-pity, it's irritating", "she gets under my skin", "i try to be nice to her but she's just too negative"...

i've always known bog to be very sensitive. the littlest thing would offend him and it would drive him to an emotional outburst. however, i was turned-off at the way he handled the situation. he looted the books, it was in his possession but why run off away angry instead of asking kp and karine if he could give the book to beth because she cannot zakum? kp and karine would have understood and knowing them, they'd be happy to have given it to her because we are family and we help each other out.

i'm stopping this. i'm tired and burned out. i love myself so i won't stress on this anymore. i'll concentrate more on real life stuff like baking 2 triple chocolate cakes for my aunt and grandpa who are celebrating their birthdays 1 day apart.

[sidebar] charlie cox is so hot! saw Stardust last night on dvd and he's just ... *drools*

grats Mari (25mL) on 130!

2007-09-20T02:42:00.000-07:00

though mari, baram and i failed to ss mari's pro lvl up to 130, i managed to catch some screenies. these are for you, mari <3 grats again on lvl 130 xD

grats on 100 june!

2007-09-11T03:19:00.000-07:00

thanks to lyn, win and tay <3

Zee, Mich and I

2007-09-09T16:17:00.001-07:00

Mu Lung <3

2007-09-09T16:09:00.000-07:00

grats cherry8602 on 120

2007-08-25T06:07:00.000-07:00

u own, nat! we're so proud of you <3

photo albun I

2007-08-11T20:40:00.000-07:00

Click this link to access shared pictures. Enjoy them, my babies. These are compiled ss from mommy and daddy xD

album 1

zak screenies ^^

2007-08-11T20:14:00.001-07:00

click to enlarge screenie. enjoy!

the zak run

2007-08-07T18:13:00.000-07:00

hey guys, im just gonna ask you to read here instead of me saying the same thing over and over again in buddy chat.

so, i spoke with morel and he said we're clear for zak tomorrow. novo will have a fun zak run at 5:30 but he said it wouldn't last 4 hours. ex-hacker cream is going to have his run at the same time as ours. since our run is scheduled at 9, i made the parties beforehand assuming cream has yet to look for his members.

i suggest everyone come at 8:30 so we could create parties in El Nath to avoid confusion. party leaders will party all members except for the priests. i will party the priests and door them to zak only then will they return to their respective parties.

my friend, dee, would be playing on my priest because of bad internet connection. i can't risk a priestless party. i will, however, be on a dk. so, ill be there in zak, just on a different character.

sign up at once when the leader registers. that's it, i guess. lol, i'm so freaking out right now.

and oh! spam hb, haste, bless, heal, dispel, rage and whatever. good luck to everyone. <3

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party leaders:

herxpieasure
muslimninja
vanillakream
xxgodhandxx
technlque

zhelm owners:

muslimninja
heroofstars
eiiis

we have 2 or 3 unsure players that will confirm tomorrow so parties may change. thanks for keeping up with me >.<

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congratulations!

2007-08-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

to baby nat for level 114. it was a great feeling when we helped you level. we are very proud of you <3

to baby mich for lvl 120. sorry mommy couldn't be there, sweet. we're so proud of you <3

to mikey for lvl 97 xD

to jehane, for 124 xD always a pleasure partying with you ^^

zakum run

2007-08-05T23:13:00.000-07:00

wednesday, 9 pm est
Asia time: thursday, 9 am

i'm sorry what time in pst

new zhelm owners

2007-08-05T08:39:00.000-07:00

we will have 2 runs.on wednesday, 9 pm est. as i said in my earlier post, zhelm will go to senior players except me (hehe) so pray that zak drop a lot of zhelms on both our runs. i have yet to assign a designated looter whoever survives the entire run.

here are the priority by level for new zhelm owners (if we survive):

clericlotus lvl 127
technlque lvl 123
jehane lvl 123
wwzeldaww lvl 121
vanillakream 120

zrun

2007-08-03T20:07:00.000-07:00

hey guys, this is my first (and probably the last if it fails) attempt to host a zak run for next week. if you find your name on the list, it's because i hand-picked who i think are the best players regardless of level. this run is by invitation only. however, you can decline to join this run if you wish to. if any of you wish not to join, please let me know as soon as you read this post so i can find replacements. if you also want to include friends, let me know asap so i can finalize the list for this run.

the run is set for next week, no exact date and time as of yet. parties will be formed in el nath to avoid confusion and to make sure that each party is balanced. you all may think im nuts but this is the only way i can get my message to all of you without having to forget details.

everyone will have to donate to CB's for bombing. a designated looter will be assigned. zhelms will go by level of seniority with the exception of me. drops will be divided among those who survive the run. it will be auctioned off or sold and mesos will be divided among the members. we will have 2 runs if we can afford to. the second will follow a few hours after the first. pets with no auto hp/mp must be taken away. if you rely on auto hp/mp, please remove the pouch and meso magnet to avoid pet loot.

please make sure that all of you have completed all zakum prerequisite quests. if not, please visit this site for your guide http://www.geocities.com/foopah69/. special thanks to foopah, lvl 70, wk who edited and corrected stg 1 of zakum quest.

thank you so much for having time to read.

*** ign/job/guild
1. herxpieasure - H, vicious
2. rannasabriel - P, kami
3. sealedforce - DK, (?)
4. vanillakream - P, dancinghearts
5. wwzeldaww - P, siopaoluv
6. clericlotus - P, (?)
7. cherry8602 - DK, dancinghearts
8. technlque - H, novofatalis
9. ach1lles12 - S, yakisoba
10. eiiis - DK, kami
11. picesgirl -DK, renegade
12. hunterchamp - R, fatalflame
13. darkxstyle - H, novofatalis
14. timeofpower - DK, (?)
15. muslimninja - H, critical
16. jehane - I/L, critical
17. icemage927 - I/L dopeturtles
18. tid1er - CB, critical
19. ononotme - CB, critical
20. wwoww - CB, critical
21. soulthps - CB, critical
22. heroofstars, P, (?)
23. kravein, CB, (?)
24. idarkcloud, CB
25. barberini, DK

** list has been edited

25 minute pap

2007-08-01T00:30:00.000-07:00

i really couldn't take screenies during the actual battle because everyone was really laggy. i couldn't risk dying. xD

incredibly fun. pure ownage. xD

grats, jas on 137!

2007-07-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

sorry black ink covered you up.
just remember to always smile so you don't look angry. lol. xD

zomg i did not die!!!!!!!!

2007-07-17T18:27:00.000-07:00

awesome party consists of Khaytie, xKAILAx, Pur3Cha0s, StuckInUrMom, MiDDleSolo and my awesome husband HerxPieasure <3

first pianus xD

2007-07-10T21:42:00.000-07:00

this was hell but it was a lot of fun. nothing dropped tho and Carta called me a fool. needless to say, i didn't get a cape or whatever it's called ._.

thanks to DeeYoYo, EIIis, FrozNLite, ElectricX3 and my hubby HerxPieasure <3

lol finally <3

2007-07-08T13:30:00.000-07:00

3 digits ^^

2007-07-07T19:13:00.000-07:00

couldn't have done it without the love and support of mikey. love you, hun xD

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